Thursday, September 3, 2009

Letters to my estranged Lover....

I could tell of how high the tides are, but I'd rather speak of your peace in the midst of the storm. I could tell of the deep damp darkness, but I'd rather speak of your arms keeping me safe and warm even in the depths of the dungeons. Time and again I've hurt and disappointed you, time and again you've drawn me closer and loved me even more. Even when i turn my back on you, your faithfulness is unwavering. Your love, is extravagant. My heart is overwhelmed by your loving-kindness. Your compassion leaves me breathless. What manner of love is this? It can only be divine for it is far reaching. Far above and beyond human comprehension.
My love, my life, my stronghold, my refuge, my lifeline, my anchor, my peace, my joy, my Lord. My God.

Monday, August 31, 2009

A bell is not a bell until you ring it.
A song is not a song until you song it.
Love in your heart is not put there to stay, love is not love until you give it away.
Oscar Hammerstein II
Whom do you love? Have you told them how much you do? Have you said it again recently?
Do it.

Friday, July 31, 2009

...there have always been times like these.

Too many of us have the idea that it's wrong to enjoy ourselves while we have problems, we grow up believing that if we can't do anything else, the least we can do is worry, act stressed out and be miserable.
This was very timely for me to read especially at this period: I quit my job a few weeks back, got slam-dunked outta where I was living (read: squatting, I'm about as loaded as a penny with a hole in it, I have to end one of the most important relationships (albeit stagnant) relationships in my life. All in all, life's been a pickle for me.
At times like this, it’s easy for one to fall into self-pity and depression, throw you a pity party, asking all the typical questions like;
"Why me?"
"What if..?"
"What was my crime?"
"Who is doing this to me?"
But then I read my devotional this morning and the memory verse was Isaiah 26 vs. 3; you will keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you.... Truth is there have and will always be times like these, afterall nothing is new under the sun. Even the Bible says, 'Many are the afflictions of the righteous but the Lord delivers him out of them all.
Getting oneself in a bind is nothing new, sometimes even, you are left second guessing yourself as to whether you made the right decisions or not. But the question to really ask yourself is; 'Who am I trusting to solve the problems, God or me?' Forget about who/where the problems are coming from. Remember the Bible says 'All (emphasis being on all) things work together for good to them that love the Lord and are the called according to His purpose. Important lesson taught by the scriptures is that when adversity comes, and it will, we must stay in peace, keep your emotions and limitations in check.
I have learned from some wise ones that stuff happens, you get disappointed and even hurt, troubles will come no doubt but the thing to do is to know how you would handle it if/when it does.
As for me, one thing I know is that there remains a rest for the righteous and my expectation will not be cut short. Besides in the words of a great philosopher (i.e.: Shaggy) if things are as bad as they can be, you can be sure there'll be a brighter tomorrow.
Homeless, penniless, hubbyless? Who cares? All I know is it is well.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

In the multitude of words, lies folly.

Think of it as the laws of cause and effect, or as action and consequence, or maybe even the ripple effect. However you want to , just know that everything you do has an effect that is far bigger than you. Someone(s) or something(s) is(are) affected by whatever you do, however minute or inconsequential it may seem to be.
Does it then bequeath me to warn; Watch what you say, you can't take it back. Watch what you do, because someone is looking up to you. Be careful how you live your life, because (contrary to your popular ideology) it's not all about you.
Ironic as it may seem , considering, the world might just revolve around you. So in what direction do you choose to stir it?
Creation is earnestly (eagerly) awaiting the manifestation of the sons of God.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

What a girl wants

I saw this somewhere and thought to share.

Oh, the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person, having neither to weigh thoughts or measure words but to pour them all out, just as they are, chaff and grain together, knowing that a faithful hand will take and sift them. Keep what is worth keeping and with the breath of kindness blow the rest away.
George Elliot

And this is not just talking spiritual but the physical comfort of having someone you can be yourself with, someone you can let your hair down in front of, someone that will catch you right before you hit the ground. When you are wearing nothing but some shabby old tee-shirt in front of, you'll still be the most beautiful woman in the world to him. You can just relate naturally and without effort.
You just know it, you just feel it. it just is and it's sooo real.
Can i get an Amen somebody!

Thursday, June 18, 2009


In all my sojourn and journeying on the road to discovery, of myself that is, I have come to find out that I am not like others of my kind.
I am not your average female, not your typical demography, not your stereotype daughter or sister, not your off-the-rack friend, not your everyday born-again Christian and definitely not your run-of-the-mill African Woman.
So I don’t enjoy the same things others of my kind do, so I don’t go the way people like me are supposed to , so I don’t like what they like, I don’t act like them either, so what?
Does it make me different? Definitely
Does it make me a freak? I don’t think so, but that is mostly dependent on your definition on ‘freak’.
Of course, it means I’m unique, special, human, a female human specie exercising the God- bestowed right of free will and capability of choosing what I see fit.
From when I can remember, my siblings, family and even friends have called me an Oreo, saying I do not behave like or belong to the typical African setting ( saying I think more kindly towards the White man’s perception in most things). I’ve searched myself and I’ve realized my mentality/ideal is not typically western so I know I don’t fit in entirely into the ‘western’ setting either.
I choose to be who I choose to be fully guided by the Holy Spirit and my conscience (even though I must admit I’m somewhat of a rebel against silly rules and senseless traditions) and if that means I do not fit into any set ‘mould’. So be it.
Living life and loving it. No regrets, knowing it’s what I really wanna do and how I really wanna be. It’s fine by me.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Diagnosis: Despondency

(n) a physical pain in/around the heart, felt just about the upper left region of the torso.

Emotional distress, loss of a loved one, estrangement from a lover, disagreement with/ between lovers and/or love and distance between love or/and lovers.

Most common symptoms include shortness of breath, increase rate of heart-beat, mild insomnia, slight loss of orientation, inability to ingest properly, loss of appetite, tenderness in the chest region especially around the left side. All this may or may not be followed by a slight headache.
Migraine, fever and twitching may be observed in more severe cases.

Recommended treatment:
The most common forms of treatment include; Ice cream binges (but be advised not to get addicted because the side effects are disastrous especially to the hips and mid-section), another form is splurging and shopping (side effects of these are very costly which could make complete treatment unaffordable). The third form of treatment involves a procedure called Prayer, this course of action although not as easy as it seems is most definitely not as hard as one might think, more so it’s the only procedure the patient is allowed to get addicted to and doesn’t have side-effects( it comes highly recommended from both patients and other practitioners)
Two other less recommended forms of treatment are; going on a rebound, and therapy, but these are still experimental as their efficacy cannot be vouched.
My personal recommendation would be to write: Journal it or blog it, whichever suits you better (It’s working for me).

If symptoms persist then be advised to wait for the ‘inconvenience’ to run its course, with a coupla good comedies and movies (especially Indian ones:-)), chicken soup, long walks and some R & R, you’ll be fine and dandy and on the road to recovery ( not to talk of normalcy in no time).

Dr. Bliss ;-)